Hello, lovely people. I am back. My break was a little longer than anticipated. Now that I’m back I have a plan to move forward. I have a stack of books to read and talk about with you, everything from The Four Loves to Out of the Shadows. I want to look at music and movies. I want post vlogs and interviews. Nothing is off limits.
Some might ask why I want to do this. My mom thinks I’m a little off for wanting to work with women who have intimacy disorders. I disagree. The truth of the matter is that my mom doesn’t know about how I have struggled with pornography. I would love to be able to tell her, but I don’t know how.
How are you supposed to explain an addiction to porn and an inability to properly identify and experience love? I tried to tell my mom once that I was depressed. Her response was to look at me like I was crazy and ask me why I was depressed. But it’s not the same as being sad. These are just some of the topics that people don’t understand when they don’t experience it.
I initially wanted this to be used as a professional blog, but honestly, I don’t care about that anymore. Yes, I want to use this to get more comfortable talking about the topics, but more importantly, I want to be comfortable with myself. I want to be able to say “I love you” and truly mean it. Falling in love sounds nice.
So, this is me and this is my blog. I just turned 28 and I’m trying to find my way in the world. I’m trying to learn about life and love. I have hopes of having a healthy romantic relationship. I hope to be able to celebrate long-term sobriety, freedom from pornography. I hope to learn how to help others as well.
I’m excited for the posts to come. I’m excited about the potential of this blog.
I will chat with all you lovely people of the internet soon.